Tuesday, July 2, 2013

And This is How They Decided My Future

With trembling hands I entered my roll number, date of birth. And I saw my result
Apoorva Tikku
Category: General
Sub Category: None
State code of eligibility: Himachal Pradesh
Percentile Score in Qualifying Exam 81.73
All India Percentile Score in JEE(Main)-2013  96.69 
All India Rank : Wait... WHAT?
As I kept staring at my 5 digit AIR, I couldn't breathe for MINUTES
I wasn't expecting a very very good rank. But THIS! was too much.
A hundred things flashed in my mind in a nanosecond
Just then my friend called
"What's your rank?" she asked?
I was in no mood to talk to her. She was sounding very happy
"I got 9k rank", she said.
Which surprised me. Because she had a fairly lower JEE score than me.
But then I realized. She had 97% in board exams
"Congrats, bye"
Only from this year, they had to give weightage to the boards marks?
As soon as I cut the call, the thoughts came back to me.
I thought of last year. I thought of what I had thought. I thought of what I might get with this. I even thought of doing something stupid again. And I almost did. Almost
But then realized, Zindagi itni bhi sasti nahi hai.
Here was a failure, once again. Staring at me from the screen.
A failure.
And as I, drowned in my tears sit down and write all of this, I cannot think anything but the 5 digit rank.
This is how they decided my future. With this number.

4 comments:

  1. yaar sab kapil ki meharbani he................i got 204 in main and 84.4 in cbse board and finally rank 27k

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    1. Even the seat allotments by csab are messed up this year!

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  2. We all have such things in mind before the results, after it is out, the scenario is totally different, but from the past experiences and your story titled HOPE i have learnt that things happen for good. As you might have seen, if you were not in NIFTEM, some other person would have visited ILLINIOS instead of you... And there are many things like this... so never worry about results, they r meant to be this way...

    And who knows, there might be some more exciting things waiting for you, so, always be ready for surprises... Life is nothing but a bunch of big surprises...

    Expect the unexpected... :)

    Keep writing (Y)

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    1. And it is things like these, which make me believe that everything which happens has a reason.
      The reason may not be clear there and then. But slowly when the things unfold over the time, it surprises you, shocks you and shatters your world (speaking in a good way!)
      :D
      Thanks again for your thoughtful message!

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