Not a word!

I missed my mother a lot today.
It's not that I don't remember her everyday. But I miss her more than any day since I joined college.
Okay I called her. But some things you cannot simply say on the phone. You need the person to be in front of you and you need to have a good talk with them.
And moreover I don't want her to have unnecessary worries, by telling her things which would get her worried while I'm away from her.

I have 8 rooms in my wing. 15 girls other than me live here.
Other than that there are 48 girls on my floor.
And some 200 girls in my hostel.
And more people in my college,
This is not a counting class. My point is that I have people all around me. Good people, not so good people, elder people, younger people, people, people everywhere. And I'm feeling like the only person on the planet.
I never made many friends, not even in 12 years of school. But I  have 2 or 3 few chums(2 or 3 because I'm not sure), who would bother if I become such an example of an emotionally unstable organism. Meaning to say, that I do have people in college I can talk it out with. But the thing is: I'm not in the mood to get anyone sad or worried because of pointless things that I think of.
Also, I'm quite terrible when it comes to putting my thoughts into words. Not always.

I'm human only. I get sad. I also have lacrimal glands. All the emotions piled up in my brain, I cried a lot today.
I cry generally. But I cried rivers today. I guess my room mate was wondering once or twice what happened, when she came back. But we both have this unwritten, unsaid agreement. We pretty much know what we would like to share and what not. And she knew so she didn't ask.

And all this while I was only praying I could blurt everything out to  a stranger. Because all this burden of the unsaid things won't go till I talk it out. Just make the person sit for sometime, talk, and ask the person to leave.

I follow the same phases of business cycle:
Prosperity___Recession___Depression___Recovery.

And very soon I'm going to step into the third phase, so I think.
I only hope it's not for too long.
I also hope it does not lead to an irreversible damage, like it did last time.

Oh! And by the way, I'm not going to write Nemo-Part2. At least not now. Because it's too amazing to be written in such a mood.
Sometime later, maybe.