And This is How They Decided My Future

With trembling hands I entered my roll number, date of birth. And I saw my result
Apoorva Tikku
Category: General
Sub Category: None
State code of eligibility: Himachal Pradesh
Percentile Score in Qualifying Exam 81.73

All India Percentile Score in JEE(Main)-2013  : 96.69

All India Rank : Wait... WHAT?
As I kept staring at my 5 digit AIR, I couldn't breathe for MINUTES
I wasn't expecting a very very good rank. But THIS! was too much.
A hundred things flashed in my mind in a nanosecond
Just then my friend called
"What's your rank?" she asked?
I was in no mood to talk to her. She was sounding very happy
"I got 9k rank", she said.
Which surprised me. Because she had a fairly lower JEE score than me.
But then I realized. She had 97% in board exams
"Congrats, bye"
Only from this year, they had to give weightage to the boards marks?
As soon as I cut the call, the thoughts came back to me.
I thought of last year. I thought of what I had thought. I thought of what I might get with this. I even thought of doing something stupid again. And I almost did. Almost
But then realized, Zindagi itni bhi sasti nahi hai.
Here was a failure, once again. Staring at me from the screen.
A failure.
And as I, drowned in my tears sit down and write all of this, I cannot think anything but the 5 digit rank.
This is how they decided my future. With this number.

... And Finally!! Our First Lunch

Ever seen a girl with cheeks so red, so red like a really red thing?
I have! And I love those cheeks a lot :)
And the pink princess wakes me up from my peaceful sleep,
"Hello", I say sleepily.
"Didi, Aap ghar pe akele ho?" (Are you alone at home)
"Umm Yes, you're coming?"
"Yes I'm in your town and I need a place to crash. I'm coming"
Fine.... And so I knew today was going to be awesome!  And I doze off again..

So, by now, you must be knowing that this girl, Bateeesa, is my bestie. All my earlier posts were about which! We've had all kinds of adventures, too much fun in the last 5 years.

Okay. You might not want to read further, unless, you have nothing to do, or you are bored, or you are , Divya, Aanchal, or Vidisha herself. :D

So, I woke up again when she came. My Pinko in a Pink dress :')
Miss Pinko and I did some future planning. And then her Aunty wali friend called her. And she kept yapping yapping yapping, leaving me alone.
They both kept talking like aunties, and I had no other option than listen to them.

Please don't forget to bring it next time :P

12:59
1:15
1:47
2:10
"Vidisha... I'm starving. Lunch. Lunch. Lunch''
And we got ready, locked the house... And left. (She STILL on the phone)
"Bye Geetika'' I said, loudly and then FINALLY it was the two of us.
So it was quite funny, when we were walking..  Since there's a difference of good 11 inches in our heights, when she was holding the umbrella, it was going pat pat pat on my head :D
There we reached, as she had decided, Regent Palms.
We went there, and took my favorite table near the window :D
There were too many aunties having their Kitty party (Aunties, Aunties everywhere)
"So, what do you want to eat?"
"I don't know. Let's see", she replied
Unable to decide, Vidisha said, "All right! Ab harkuch mangaate hain''
Fine. We ordered. Continued with our future planning :P
I could describe it in two pages.
But that would be boring
So, we ate.
''Ice cream?"
"Yes!!"
So, I had my favorite. Chocolate. And she, strawberry
And here comes the "ICE CREAM KAAND"
She said something to the waiter, which I won't disclose, otherwise my pretty friend will kill me, for sure.
It was terrible. For the first time, I did NOT like chocolate ice cream.
While going back, she again said something for the waiter, which, again is not to be disclosed :D
"Bahut ***** se aapne *****" 
She had to buy stuff. Binding wires, some form, some beads and HNPFP, which I bought too..  :P
And then.... we came back
We had quite fun.
And then... she went :'(
Funny, she left her wires in my purse. Now she has to come back on 25th :D
So, I know you will be reading it too late... but whenever you do... I just wanted to tell you again..
Tere shoes pe dil aa gaya tha mera :')
And here ends the most boring post ever!
Love you lots :D
Your Dido

And this was our future planning :D

When I grow up...

So this evening, I was sitting outside, watching my new little neighbors and their littler friends play.
They were playing "chair hide and seek", which I had taught them yesterday, which me, and my friend had invented 10 years ago!
"Stupid game, why don't we all play cricket?", said 7 year old Manku "I will be a cricketer when I grow up. Sachin Tendulkar"
"Oh really? I don't think so. Even I play better than you", little Tani spoke up.

Wow. Those kids started fighting (So cute!)
"Okay Tani, What do you want to be when you grow up?", I asked her.
I always love to ask little children what do they want to become when they grow up. Well because, I'm still looking for ideas!
"Me? I want to be Miss India", she said, as she started waving and blowing kisses to everyone.
"Miss India. Awesome! What about you, Sahil?"
"I want to be a Papa" (What!)
"Hawww.." was what all of them said, all together
(Well, great thought, though. I had a boy in my class, who had said in 3rd grade, when a teacher asked him, that he wanted to become a papa and a house-husband, both)
"You're next, Ishani. Do you want to become a Mumma?", I smiled. Everybody laughed.
"No. I want to become a detective"
"What will you do, then?"
"Solve cases, like ACP Pradyuman does. It will be fun, no?"
"No! I will be a magician. THAT will be fun. I'll do things no one had ever seen!", Kshitij screamed.

Haha! remember when we were little, and we wanted to do all sorts of things.! Those days when we meet someone, and in 5 seconds, we're playing like we're the best of friends!

"Arre didi, what do YOU want to be when you grow up?" Tani asked.
"Can't you see, didi is already grown up enough, you stupid!" Manku laughed!
"Why don't you shut up! She will grow more na, and become like the badi wali didi"
(Badi wali didi... is my elder cousin)
"Didi tell na, it's your turn!"

And I start thinking.
Me? Well I don't remember. But my mother tells me that when I was small, and whenever anybody asked me, I would say "Scientist" and start beaming :D
But then when I grew up a little, I remember all I wanted, was to be a horse.! They laughed at me, but that did not shake my determination. :P Actually I pretty much wanted all of the above (except for house husband, of course!)
So,
Tell me, what do YOU want to become when you grow up?

P.S. - I STILL want to become a horse!

Two Questions

Amazing much. Take 5 minutes to read!


Question 1:
If you knew a woman who was pregnant, who had 8 kids already, three who were deaf, two who were blind, one mentally reatarded, and she had syphilis, would you recommend that she have an abortion?

Read the next question before looking at the response for this one.

Question 2:
It is time to elect a new world leader, and only your vote counts.
Here are the facts about the three candidates.

Candidate A:
Associates with crooked politicians, and consults with astrologists. He's had two mistresses. He also chain smokes and drinks 8 to 10 Martinis a day.

Candidate B:
He was kicked out of office twice, sleeps until noon, used opium in college and drinks a quart of whiskey every evening.

Candidate C:
He is a decorated war hero. He's a vegetarian, doesn't smoke, drinks an occasional beer and never committed adultery.

Which of these candidates would be your choice?

Decide first... No peeking, then scroll down for the response.






Candidate A is Franklin D. Roosevelt.
Candidate B is Winston Chruchill.
Candidate C is Adolf Hitler.

And, by the way, on your answer to the abortion question:
If you said YES, you just killed Beethoven.

Pretty interesting isn't it?
Makes a person think before judging someone.

Remember:

Amateurs... Built the Ark.

Professionals... Built the Titanic.

Sorry Dad

I glanced upon this touching story in one of the recent editions of Elan Tit-Bits that my doctor father gets almost every month. Read on...


My dad had only one eye. I hated him. He was such an embarrassment. He cooked for students and teachers to support the family. There was this one day during elementary school when my dad came to say hello to me.


I was so embarrassed.


How could he do this to me?


I ignored him, threw him a hateful look and then ran out.


The next day at school, one of my classmates said, "EEEE, your dad has only one eye!"


I wanted to bury myself.


I also wanted my dad to just disappear.


I confronted him that day and said, "If you're going to make me a laughing stock, why don't you just die?"


My dad did not respond.


I didn't even stop to think for a second about what I had said, because I was full of anger.


I was oblivious to his feelings.


I went out of the house, and had nothing to do with him.


Then I studied really hard and got a chance to go abroad and study.


Then, I got married.


I bought a house of my own and had kids of my own.


I was happy with my life, my kids and the comforts. Then, one day, my father came to visit me.


He hadn't seen me in years, and he hadn't even met his grandchildren.


When he stood by the door, my children laughed at him, and I yelled at him for coming over uninvited.


I screamed at him, "How dare you come to my house and scare my children!


GET OUT OF HERE NOW!"


To this, my father quietly answered, "Oh, I am so sorry, I may have gotten the wrong address."


And he disappeared out of sight.


One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house.


So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip.


After the reunion, I went to the old shack just out of curiosity.


My neighbours said that my dad had died.


I did not shed a single tear.


They handed me a letter that he had wanted me to read.

"My dearest Son,


I think of you all the time. I'm sorry that I came to your house and scared your children. I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion. But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you.


I'm sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were growing up.


You see, when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye. As a father, I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with one eye. So I gave you mine. I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye.


With all my love to you,


Your Dad"

तो ज़िंदा हो तुम

Last night I was watching Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara.
I was forcing myself to stay awake because I had never watched it complete!:P
So in a half asleep state what I remember the most were 2 things:
First, was when they went skydiving. Farhan's reaction when he landed- epic!
And the second, the end! Imran's poem.

दिलों में  तुम अपनी बेताबियाँ ले कर  चल रहे हो तो  ज़िंदा हो तुम 

नज़र में  ख्वाबों की बिजलियाँ ले कर  चल रहे हो तो  ज़िंदा  हो तुम

हवा के झोंकों के जैसे आज़ाद रहना सीखो
तुम एक दरिया के जैसे, लहरों मैं बहना सीखो
हर एक लम्हे से तुम मिलो, खोले अपनी बाहें
हर एक पल एक नया समा दिखाए

जो अपनी  आखों में हैरानियाँ ले कर चल रहे हो तो  ज़िंदा हो तुम,

दिलों में तुम अपनी बेताबियाँ ले कर चल रहे हो तो  ज़िंदा हो तुम!!

Oops I remember only this much! But I like it a lot :)

So, One day at a time--this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering... because ZNMD!

It's raining!

If I were you I'd be taking it easy
Kick back and relax for a little while
We'll all still be here tomorrow
Take time just to act like a little child
No matter what the world has in store for us
You got the ring that better get off of us

If your boss is giving you pressure
Let go, take a breather in the park
You've got to find out what's your pleasure
In time you'll be singing like a lark
Pretty soon your sorry will chime for all
Somebody will heed your call
Reach out for a comfortable chair
Rejoice and throw your arms in the air

'Cause it's  good life

So why y'all tripping

The good life slipping away!

 

On reflection, one of the things I needed to learn was to allow myself to be loved. So I had a pretty lazy day

Finally, it's raining after 100 years and I'm sitting outside, in this beautiful weather watching the rain pouring.

Don't you love the sound of rain against your window on a summer night!? Like the sound of a shower running on full-blast. Thunder, lightening...

And this amazing wind... What an amazing way to end this lazy day :P

Wow!!

It really feels so relaxing just to listen to the sound of rain. so beautiful.... no wonder, it's an inspiration for so many poets, writers and many romantic songs. :P I remember the one from 3 Idiots!

Thank you god! . So now I forgot all my worries and I can peacefully go to sleep! This rain saved my day

More than happy!

*Disfrutar de la vida * (:

Blink Blink

Yes? or No?
This question had been troubling me since the last 11 days... and I've had many sleepless nights, worrying :| 
Until I finally decided NO! after thinking nearly a thousand times. Because there was this voice inside of me, who knew that I deserved better. 
And I'm glad that sometimes life gives us a second chance, to correct our mistakes. 
I'm writing after a really long break! I saw my world change in the past 3 months. But that's too much to write about! So, details in the next blog posts.
Life has indeed lost its charm! 
It's all gone wayward. 
I felt like writing out loud so I could feel a bit better. But when I sat back and thought, I was blank! !!
B-L-A-N-K
As blank as a... blank thing. Empty. Nothing!!
(Has my brain stopped working?)


I've been thinking a lot lately about taking chances, and how it's really just about overcoming your fears. 
Because the truth is, everytime you take a big risk in your life, no matter how it ends up, you're always glad you took it!
And how can I say that? because I just know it!!!

How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head

Yes, it's Chris Brown playing right now!
So, coming back to the main thing, since then I have seen a drastic change in myself! I HAVE seen a new me and I don't know how! 

Sad days were over and I felt like a bowling pin - All set up again! 
Until that night when I was completely shattered. 
So much that I just couldn't speak a word for two days!!! That made me realize ...that I get demoralized way too easily.
 So now I've started paying lesser attention to what people say
(except, of course the people who really matter!) 
All I know is that I kinda gotta figure out what I need (yes, again;) )
And to prove someone how wrong he is!
In Vidisha's words, "Chaabi lo .. te gaddi set karo! And aal the way to D*****" There are never any real good reasons to put your dreams on hold.
Oh! and less than 7% battery remaining.. Oops! I need to end this post now, though I'm surprised I wrote so much despite being so BLANK :P 
See you all in a while! Stay amazing!
Disfrutar de la vida (:
P.S.: Sorry for the Blink Blink! I just couldn't think of any title!!